In recent months I have been obsessing over my degree classification. Based on the methods of calculating my degree there are a few that could possibly apply, but the most appealing one would require me getting a first class grade in an exam I’m about to take on Tuesday. The likelihood of me getting this grade is quite slim, not because I don’t know the course material, but because of the style of questions presented in third level exam papers which instead of asking logical questions with single answers, instead ask you questions you would have never seen before and challenge you to find an answer and how you reached that answer.
Many colleagues around me have already got their first class degree based on their average from last semester, unfortunately for me however I concentrated on a particular field more so than others which sure enough gave me one of the best grades in the class, yet it meant I suffered in other areas. I asked a friend of mine what their degree classification was and they gave me some interesting insight into their degree which made me feel quite satisfied and less worried as to my future. "Your degree classification should reflect your natural ability, not your pushed ability, unless of course you want to be stressed in your future jobs". Listening to this made me feel content, that’s for sure. I’ve been pulling my hair out over my degree classification for the reason that I’m currently averaging 71% meaning that I need to get 75% in my next exam. This means that if I fall short, even my a couple of percent, then I’m miss my first class grade.
What I don’t realise, in the bigger scheme of things, is that (supposedly) a 2:1 grade is in fact above average in my particular field of study, which shocked me. The thing with degree classifications is they work differently from what we’ve experienced our entire lives. A’s, B’s and C’s fell into areas such as 80+, 70+ and 60+ where as degrees fall into "if it’s more than 70%, you’ve got yourself a first" which doesn’t feel like much, but relative to degree-level education, it’s actually quite high. As family and university staff have pointed out to me - being a perfectly valid point - is that just over a year ago I lay on a hospital bed on a life support machine. Now I hate to use this, I really do, because I’d rather not use it for an excuse, yet disregarding the fact as an excuse it is an observation worth taking note of. The truth is that the doctors told me I definitely wouldn’t go back to my job (I was on my placement at the time) and I may - and they used may in the strongest sense - be able to go back to university. Here I am after almost 9 months of university still battling on with my exams. My illness has caused some prolonged effects which have had an impact on me in the last few months, of which I will not go into details. Let’s not forget that I’m getting married in just over two months either.
Whether I get a first class grade, or an upper second grade, what I have to realise is that I am still an achiever regardless of how I may compare myself to others around me. I will still enjoy my work, I will still be able to perform, and I will still be employable in my field of work. A first class grade is an added bonus, sure, from here on out I’m looking at a more exciting future with more experience being gained than ever before with extra time to concentrate on the things I really love doing. The problem I have is that every single friend I seem to have either has a first class grade, or is definitely going to get one. I say, good for them, and I really am pleased for them, but I’d rather be happy then obsess over it, not achieve it, then spend the next few years being bitter over it.
I want to be happy as an average university student, and that’s what I’m going to do!
(just as a side note, some exciting things are about to happen over at reformsoft!)